Day 11 - I am Starving

I woke up this morning to a brand new low on the scale; I dropped 2.8 lbs in the last 11 days. My hard work is starting to show. For some reason, I am starving, and anything around me is at risk. I called Glen for some back up plans. He said I can curb my chocolate craving with unsweetened cocoa powder and water or rice milk. Worst case scenario, I should munch on a protein bar.

So I walked to real foods to load up on more veggies, Scharfen Berger Cocoa Powder, and I made the mistake of buying a 3 Mojo Bars. I looked through the protein bars for the cleanest most balance options and settled on those because they were lower in fat and higher in protein and carbohydrates.


Around 11 I had my coffee, rice milk and 1 tbsp cocoa powder. It was pretty good actually. By 1 pm I was hungry again so I went back to Corsgna Deli for my favorite tuna salad. After I devoured that, I started circling the Mojo bars. I rationed that I probably need the extra calories because of all of my hard work so I sat down and slowly savored the first bar. 20 minutes later, I devoured the second bar. I made it halfway down the third bar before throwing it away. In less than an hour, I ate an extra 500 calories. I feel terrible about what I did, but not as bad as if I'd eaten a cupcake or what I've really been dreaming of, a Ghiradelli double chocolate chip brownie topped with two scoops of vanilla ice cream. I am starting to lose focus the harder this is getting. I am always hungry. I'm hungry right now.

What I am most upset about is that, my weight dropped and instead of continuing my hard work, I indulged in protein bars.

On a positive note, I had a pretty good workout. I am sore everywhere; chest, back, legs, abs, everywhere. I am starving and weak. I knew if I didn't verbalize my workout to Larissa, I would lie and end early.

Workout:
4 sets of 3 chest and 3 back exercise, 15 reps for each exercise.

We got through the whole thing, but we took some longer rests. I think we were just exhausted by Friday.