Day 14 - Losing Faith

Last night I dreamt I was in a house with other girls I know, and it was full of chocolate desserts; chocolate puddings, brownies, every variation of chocolate cake. In the dream I only managed to get in a couple bites before all the desserts disappeared. I spent the rest of the dream hunting for these desserts and trying to figure out why no one would share. I had the same level of anxiety as when I'm being chased by a killer or mountain lion. I am not making this up.

It is very easy to lose track of what is important as time goes by, especially when you are surrounded by people who don't make the same sacrifices you do. You tell yourself you won't win anyway, why bother trying.

It is so important to stay positive and focused. Lucky for me I have a strong support system; Ali, Glen, Maria, Larissa, anyone reading this blog.

To help with my chocolate cravings, I made my own version of almond chocolate butter, and I can have 1 tbsp of it with meals instead of the quarter avocado.


Chocolate Almond Butter Recipe:
(Warning: this isn't the most delicious but I enjoy it)

• - 2 TBSP Almond Butter
• - 1 TBSP Cocoa Powder
• - 1 tsp Xylitol

Our Workout of the Day Leg Workout:

(10-12 reps, 3 sets each, heavy weights)

• - Reverse lunges
• - Front Squats
• - Cross over step ups

Today is Meditation Monday, which happens to fall on the same day as Weigh in Monday. I'm not looking as lean as I would have hoped after 2 weeks of dieting, but I only have my cheats to blame. The good news is that I dropped 4 lbs in that time and I plan to lose another 2 lbs. The other good news is I am learning from my mistakes. every time I cheat, I ask myself what caused it to happen and how can I prevent it in the future. The first time was waiting too long between meals, the second time was skipping meals, and one day I was just really hungry and probably should have had more fiber and water. Are you ready for a picture?

OK, here it goes.

I'm really nervous. I'm posting it.

Right now:




It is really easy for me to start picking on myself, but instead I am going to stay positive; I am working really hard, my shoulders look great, I lost 2 inches on my waist, I love the way I feel... I bought these super sexy Lululemon booty shorts to motivate me to keep working on my butt (so it fits inside them like on all the fitness models).

Larissa and I went to our favorite day spa for a little pampering after our intense leg workout. I called ahead to order our salads with 4 oz of protein, 3 cups of veggies, and minimal fat.

As soon as we arrived, we hit the gym for sprint intervals.

• Warm Up - 5 min speed walk or light jog
• Workout - 5 rounds of the workout below
• 1 min at 6.0 mph (Can carry a conversation)
• 1 min at 6.5 mph (Can talk, but it's getting harder)
• 1 min at 7.0 mph (Polite banter, focus on the breathing)
• 1 min at 7.5 mph (1 or 2 word responses)
• On 5th round finish with 30 sec at 8.5 mph or as fast as you can go (full on Sprint)
• Cool Down - 5 minutes light jog to walk

If this is too easy or too hard adjust the levels accordingly. The whole point of these intervals is to build up your heart rate, then recover and build it back up.

After our filling and balanced lunch, we basked in the sun, read our favorite Oxygen and Rx Magazines, talked about our pitfalls and triumphs, and just relaxed. What I realized today is you don't need to pamper yourself with a great meal, glass of wine or special dessert, you can pamper your body. Rest is just as important a factor as eating well, exercising, and hydration.

Carrie Bradshaw moment:

Maybe we should focus on what we love about ourselves and direct our attention away from the negative. We don't have time to put ourselves down.

Thanks Larissa


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