Day 30 - Freaking Out

Today was my 4th weigh in and I am not sure how I feel about it. I am excited that I have 30 days left to go, but I don't feel like I made that big of a change. Everyone tells me how small I look, but I am scared it won't cut it for the competition. What if I can't build enough muscle? What if my glutes deflate? I need to look like this:

Everyone tells me I will see the results the last 30 days and I am anxious. I am impatiently waiting for Glen to call so I can get in my second workout of the day; we are supposed to focus on the leg press. Last night my quads hurt so bad and I was so hungry at 2 am that I couldn't sleep most of the night. Since my back isn't sore anymore, I spent my morning doing pull ups and rows. I did:

• 5 sets of wide grip pull ups (8-10 reps)
• 5 sets of narrow grip pull ups (8-10 reps)
• 5 sets of TRX close rows (15-20 reps)

I am trying very hard not to over train, but I want to make sure I do everything possible to have the advantage. My waist had dropped another half an inch, which is barely visible. My abs hurt so bad but I still want to do mountain climbers, leg lifts, and TRX pikes. I am going to let them calm down and then I am going to start doing 20 minutes of abs right before bed. That way I don't waste my time during the day working on my six pack. Get ready to see some major changes in the next 30 days. I am going to pop in my Slim Naturally meditation track and if Glen doesn't call by then, I am going to hit the gym again on my own. There is no way I am losing this thing.

Although, I the scale has barely dropped, I have lost over 2 inches in my waist and hips. I need to lose 2 more inches in the next 30 days. Next week I am meeting with a stage coach to go over presentation, shoes and suit. I am also going to start tanning and primping for the show. I'll keep you all up to date on my progress.